"I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it."
-Mark Twain
Can someone help me please to believe in this quote. To take some strength from it. Because I keep panicking, in the dead of night, when it's dark and I'm alone with my thoughts. I keep thinking about something billions of years away that obviously me (having died billions of years before it) have no control over.
I just cannot stop being afraid of the end of the universe. Of the end of all life. The thought of pure nothingess. My head can't even get around that concept somehow but it still scares me.
I've mentioned this fear many times before but my panic attacks over it are getting worse. I just cannot help feel scared and useless. I put it down to not believing in an afterlife. I truly believe when we die it's the end, which is scary enough, but thinking about everything ever being gone too is more than my little human mind can handle.
If anyone can help me cope with this thought somehow, then please. Because I can't anymore.
Addict
i take pills to deal with my problems
then again i'm a trashy piece of shit