I've suffered from it twice in the past - Waking up and gasping for oxygen. I'm pretty sure it happened again a few nights ago but I was back alseep so fast that it left my mind until a few days later. As far as I can remember it was far more severe than it was previously. I remember trying to breathe but just couldn't, then I could and I just passed out in sleep I assume.

No I wasn't dreaming, I could recall it too well, recall the feeling of suffocating almost. It's worrying for the future really. Could it happen again and I just don't wake up and I die? I'm thinking that. I think it as I fall asleep and pretty soon I know I'm going to be afraid of sleeping again.

We'll see I guess. Or not if I do die.

Also;

"but leanne-- you can't love people until you love yourself =\ I know it sounds fucking corny or whatever, but it's honestly true."

Yeah I know, I just can't change that.

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