Oliver

I'm sorry I'm a bitch.

We'll talk soon. I don't know whats up with me. I've just not been myself for a while now and I'm trying to change and sometimes I feel like the internet is dragging me down more and I'm trying to get away from that, to detach myself from that, I'm not trying to detach myself from you though, really I'm not.

Also home life has been none to great recently (as usual). Me and mum just moved again, waiting for home net to come back on and then we'll talk properly. I know I should be sending you a pm not making a blog about it for everyone to see but I just want you and everyone to know that I'm a horrible person, I'm very selfish and that your friendship still means a lot to me.

I just hope I haven't damaged you with my complete lack of talking lately. I just got a lot of shit like I said and sometimes talking one on one with people on here just brings me down more, and when I feel I can't help you, can't say the right words to make you feel better it just brings my mood down too and I can't deal with that mentally right now.

I hope you don't hate me.

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BaronVonBadGuy 2010-06-26 06:31:49

The internet can definitely become all consuming. When things IRL slow to a churn, it becomes all too inviting to immerse oneself in a secondary cyber life. Personally I'm fine with this. At the moment my non-e life is going pretty good, so I'm not as active online. However, I'm well aware that things IRL tend to slow down eventually, and during those periods, the internet is a nice place to pass time. It's also a nice place to rest when things in real life become extremely too active, and down time is needed.

Regardless, if you ever want to chat about w/e via PM, be it about something bothering you, mutual advice, or just a "pen pal" so to speak, feel free to drop me a line. I always enjoy talking with fellow oldschool users, and despite occasional bouts of trolling, I'm pretty good when it comes to insight for the benefit of another person.

Anyhow, take care Gags,
~Mike

Gagsy 2010-06-26 06:31:49

Thanks for the comment Mike.

I always knew you were a cool guy, didn't know you were a decent guy too. Thanks for the offer but I'll no doubt have to turn that down. I've always been a bit of a loner when it comes to dealing with my problems. That's just what I need to do to get over things. I appreciate it all the same though and I would love to chat sometime still, about anything.

You're damn cool

Take care yourself.

Leanne

Doberman 2010-06-26 08:09:12

wat

Jolly 2010-06-26 15:14:54

Gagsy <3

Gagsy 2010-06-26 15:14:54

<3 Jolly

JadeTheAssassin 2010-06-27 01:25:21

if you ever need to talk, just pm me.

also, i was worried too.

<3 glad you're kinda sort maybe ok <3

Gagsy 2010-06-27 01:25:21

You don't need to worry about me :(

I'm a survivor, even when I don't want to be, it's what I do.

Thanks for the offer. I hope things are going well with you <3

Mechabloby 2010-06-27 06:17:49

You're definitely not a horrible person. It's completely okay with what you're going through at the moment - you're trying to sort out the downside to your life and that's highly admirable. Leanne, don't ever think that you're being a terrible person to try and sort yourself out - you should hold your head up high and keep at it. I don't hate you and I never have done - I've worried and worried as whenever I sent you a PM, you never replied back... my initial reaction was that I had just agitated you so much that you couldn't take anymore.

I'm glad to hear you're trying to sort your life out though and I hope that it works out positively. I should really try and get myself sorted, but knowing me, I won't.

Gagsy 2010-06-27 06:17:49

Yeah but I just feel like a complete fuck up like all the time. I have no good karma or luck or anything. I know people say you make your own luck which is true but when things are 50/50 for me you can be sure I get the bad result. It's a little soul destroying really.

Believe me, it isn't just you that I've been 'avoiding'. I have a hobby of never responding to people online after a few times. I don't know why I do it but I just feel the need to a lot of the time.

You can sort yourself out too Oliver. Just got to take the first step and not fall over it like I do =P

Me-Patch 2010-06-27 06:37:37

It's hot outside, can I go swimming in your eyes?

Gagsy 2010-06-27 06:37:37

Sure.

Dew 2010-06-27 06:53:36

We feel your pain, but we also don't give a fuck.

THAT'S LIFE SISTA'.

jmalouin7 2010-06-28 00:27:05

Where's my blog >:(

Gagsy 2010-06-28 00:27:05

Where's my love!?

Hawdcore 2010-06-28 03:22:57

You should call this suicide hotline below...

471-1134

Ronald-McDonald-LoL 2010-06-29 00:16:42

BBS Posts: 30,154 (20.11 per day)

Can I have the life you aren't using? Please?

Gagsy 2010-06-29 00:16:42

No, I need it to keep posting.

WaterShake 2010-06-29 07:13:23

I hope you feel better soon, I don't know you, but I know Gagsy is a lovely person.

Gagsy 2010-06-29 07:13:23

Thanks :3

Gobblemeister 2010-06-30 05:56:14

Helping people online is a futile effort

There are some things that can't be remedied in an impersonal discussion

Sometimes people have to find the courage to face the issue themselves

Acting as a shelter to that does a disservice to that person

I think we can all understand that the internet isn't the place for advice, no?

Gagsy 2010-06-30 05:56:14

What I lack irl, I try to make up for online.

Sindread 2010-06-30 13:51:09

Your really 13? Wow. Who'd believe i have the same age as Gagsy.

Gagsy 2010-06-30 13:51:09

I'm 13 plus 10

karategangster 2010-06-30 14:26:49

Rushmore>The Life Aquatic, The Royal Tenenbaums,

All great.

(8,)

Gagsy 2010-06-30 14:26:49

Never seen The Life Aquatic. PERHAPS I SHOULD.

Jercurpac 2011-11-16 11:13:34

Greetings from the future.

Spoiler alert: Don't get too attached to Steve Jobs

Oliver

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