No I'm not talking about death for once. I think I mean with Newgrounds.

I'm starting to really question why I come on here, why I continue to waste my life. I've wasted about 7 years of my life just being on the internet, not living, and I think I've finally had enough of it.

I feel like I don't fit in here, which might seem weird to people, because why do you need to fit in with a website full of misfits? When I see though people I've gotten to know strart to move on and get more friends, get degrees, get partners, just getting on with their lives, I feel like.. Why isn't that me?

It should be me. I'm 22 now, and I've not got anything to show for it. If I'm not careful I will indeed die alone, having nothing to show for my life except a few thousand posts on a forum.

I've always loved my solitude, my alone time. I cherish being on my own. Maybe it's because I've been on my own for years now that it's second nature to me. It shouldn't be though and I know the only way to get over it is to tackle it on head first. Be more social, be more outgoing, whatever.

I need to.

No, this isn't goodbye, this isn't even be back soon. This is just me becoming aware that someday I won't be coming back. Sure I know many people on here juggle real life well and still manage a good few hours on here most nights too, but I just don't know what the future holds for me and my life , and I probably think it is better if I can detach myself from Newgrounds somehow, so that when I am ready to do more living (which I am attempting now) I won't be worried about BP points or what the guys in Stickam are up to or what great flash I'm missing or especially what great topics I'm missing.

I don't want that anymore.

Peace.